Hey Reader!

You’ve already heard about why I’m starting over with this email community.

It’s got me thinking about the topic of “starting over” in general.

So today, I wanted to share…

What I would do if I was “starting over” with my lightworker journey. Meaning, when I began to be conscious of it, and became on purpose about living into it.

Right now, I feel so grateful for everything I’ve learned and experienced. Even the painful moments!

But I think maybe it didn’t have to be quite so hard.

So if I could time travel back to about 5 years ago, when I discovered some great mentors and spiritual teachers, and was beginning to learn about things like the false matrix, and ascension, and the divine self, when I realized I wasn’t just a healer. But also was a lightworker…

And of course I wanted to be the best one I could be and the best version of myself in general…

…Here’s what I would do. I’d give myself a lightworker manual that had several rules (?) or pieces of advice, that would have saved me time and heartache. Like…

#1 — Let go of perfection right now...

I had no idea what a little perfectionist I was. But it’s a waste of time.

Because (a) it’s not required, and (b) it’s impossible and you’ll wear yourself out trying. Then you might get stalled on the journey.

Now, I know that perfectionism is basic false matrix programming, and that everyone’s journey will have mistakes and setbacks, but back then, failure of any kind was unacceptable!

#2 — Accept every feeling you have, whether it’s one you like or not.

I wasted a lot of time and energy trying to talk myself out of feeling the way I felt. Now, I learned that during a very painful childhood, so it was a well-ingrained habit by the time I was stepping onto the lightworker path.

And it took years to unlearn it! In fact, sometimes, I still catch myself starting to reason my way out of some negative feeling. Again, this is basic false matrix programming, so it takes some doing to swim against the tide.

But these days, I (mostly) acknowledge both my thoughts and my feelings, and when they are painful, I offer myself love and compassion.

#3 — Slow down & devote yourself to stillness and your true self, not to trying to heal every issue you’ve ever uncovered.

I spent so much time trying to heal, heal, heal and heal. But you can only heal what you’re ready to face in that moment.

And facing those issues and acknowledging them is important. But (a) going on the hunt in order to heal your false self, main character story may be a less helpful use of your time than connecting to your true self and (b) addressing those issues while connected and from within your higher frequency vantage point may make the process much easier (faster, too)

I’d want to go back and tell myself that at the very beginning of my journey. And it would include the advice to stop pushing myself to do and focus instead on being.

All of which is easier when you carve out plenty of time for stillness.

So, if I was starting over on the lightworker path, I’d start each day with stillness (as I do now) and pause throughout the day to get grounded again or just breathe deeply and slowly to reconnect with myself.

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Was it helpful to see what’s changed for me over the years?

I’d love to hear if you have any “a-ha moments” or follow-up questions from this email. Hit “reply” and let me know. :

See you next time!

Love, Jeanine

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